Berhenti Mengharap

BERHENTI MENGHARAP

 

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku salutkan kemenanganmu
Woo...

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Haa...
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Rebahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua...

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Mia is not felling well

Pity mia

Dah lama tak tulis blog..skrg pun Mia dah nak masuk 7 months time flies so fast...& now suddenly mia tak sihat demam sikit...batuk..selesema complete satu set...i'm worried semalam pun tido tak lena kejap2 bangun...kesian dia hidung tersumbat tak boleh bernafas dgn ok...kejap2 bangun buat kan dia susu...pastu suruh dia tido...tak tahu today mcm maner if still tak ok lagi then kena buat gie clinic lah tak boleh postpone lah bahaya sgt

Saya sedih.............................:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Dear Rayyan...& Mia mama so sad rayyan & mia.....tak lama lagie mama anniversery dgn daddy.....mama dah plan byk benda for celebrate...but hati mama sedih rayyan..although rayyan tak faham aper yg mama lalui nie..but nie ajer cara mama boleh luahkan..kalau nak cerita kan org lain it's not good...cerita hal rumahtangga org kan berdosa... hanya Allah yg dpt menenangkan hati mama sayang rayyan & mia......especially during fasting month...itulah dugaan di bulan yang mulia..daddy sakit kan hati mama sayang...sakit yg tak tahu biler boleh sembuh...maybe today...maybe tomorrow ...maybe next year...maybe 10 years only god knows....Rayyan dlm bulan puasa nie mama selalu berdoa..supaya mama menjadi..mother yg terbaik utk rayyan & mia..mothers yg sempurna although i'm not prefect..menjadi wife yg lebih baik dari before...menjadi  perempuan yg lebih baik dari before..insyallah
Mama always berdoa that..semoga our family always dilindungi ..dah dirahmati oleh Allah....
Rayyan kalau lah rayyan dah besar..rase mcm nak cerita ajer everything to you..mcm best fren..but nvm rayyan & mia penguat hati mama...
This year anniversery gift from daddy is .....menyakitkan hati mama dia hantar email to his ex gf which is this...

From: Aizuddin Danian <aizuddin@gmail.com>
Date: August 4, 2011 4:41:01 PM GMT+08:00
To: nik zahrinawati nik zahari <nikkizahri@gmail.com>
Subject: Re:

when are you going back? so early?

On Aug 4, 2011, at 3:38 PM, nik zahrinawati nik zahari wrote:

haiya....after 22nd cannot...going back n pretty busy

On Thu, Aug 4, 2011 at 3:11 PM, Aizuddin Danian <aizuddin@gmail.com> wrote:

after the 22nd. I'm broke already this month. :)

On Aug 4, 2011, at 3:11 PM, nik zahrinawati nik zahari wrote:

when? today?

On Thu, Aug 4, 2011 at 3:04 PM, Aizuddin Danian <aizuddin@gmail.com> wrote:

even when i call you i'm sombong... :(

Wanted to ask you to have buka puasa with me. Let's go to that restaurant... what's the name of that place on the hill, we visited.

On Aug 4, 2011, at 11:41 AM, nik zahrinawati nik zahari wrote:

> sombongnya.................................................................................

sedih only god knows....how's my feelings....in my mind i already prepare what to do 
and so ...aper nak celebrate...but this :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((...

why rayyan...daddy did to me..coz mama tak give attention to him..coz i'm busy take care of you and mia...why...how do i solve this issue? by what...by become i slave?  i'm just tired lah rayyan...why he doesn't care my feelings....

Dear Rayyan,

Satu ajer mama ask from daddy...jaga lah perassan mam ...hargai lah aper yg isteri kamu telah korban kan...pengorbanan yg tidak boleh di jual dengan wang ringgi.....why daddy choose...me ...why for the first place..daddy tak choose that stupid bitch women... why.....choose mama..if she thinks i'm not a good assisstance ..motivator for daddy...supporter ...he said..i don't anything...actually i knew this things will happen..in the future...

3 years marriage ...is just a beginning... their is a lot of up down kita akan facing ....Oh god please help me...byk pengorbanan i lalui ..berkorban jiwa ...nyawa utk melahirkan rayyan & mia..pengorbanan yg tidak boleh di bayar dgn 1 MILLION DOLLAR PUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN..................

rase mcm nak cry ajer ...but dlm office...

Dating tomorrow

yeahhhhh tomorrow dating.........tak sabar...nak pergi klcc...just want to flash back our memory for the first time we meet together...heheheheheheh

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY RAYYAN

Happy Birthday rayyan....big boy...dah besar suka sgt posing cheeky dia tue

Tired today

Dah lama tak tulis blog...mia pun dah besar 2months 2 week..soon rayyan nak masuk 2 years...time flies so fast...it been a busy -busy day..but i'm happy with my family now...rayyan + mia...my beautiful son & daughters...love you so much sayang...mama hope that you become a good kids..soleh & solehah tue yg penting...pelajarang & agama...& mama harap mama pun nak jadi mothers yg terbaik for both of you...mia my beautiful sweet girls...skrg nie mia dah pandai gelak2..tak byk ragam...minum susu main2 & then sleep..letak baby cot terus senyap...& tido...rayyan cheeky boy..asyik ckp ahhhhh milk.....ehhhhh 6 = 613 playhouse disney..tue ajer yg dia tahu biler mata dah start bukak...bosan betul....nak tgk cerita lain pun tak blh...rayyan2....tired lah today....this morning rayyan tak sihat...so dah planning bagus2...punya ingat nak pergi doctor chua....and pergi medela service center......nasib baik pergi medela service center sekejap ajer..so far service dia oklah...just kena improve lagie ...rayyan tak sihat lah batuk ajer lately nie ....

 Mia Eryna 2m3 weeks

1 year 11months

betul lah aper yg mak ckp

aiz skrg sejak dah ader mia...perangai dia berubah sgt ...dia dah tak mcm dulu lagie..betul lah aper yg mak ckp ...laki nie biler anak sorang ..perangani dia lain...biler anak dua...perangai dia lain...mmg betul lah aper yg mak ckp ....not felling well today tak larat rase yer ..tak pie i kena strong coz mia breastfeed is tough but kena kuat kan semangat ......